Daydream

I have reached a turning point
I awoke to finally realize how foolish I have been
It was just a daydream, and now the sun is rapidly setting...
I could not have handled this realization before
The hollow space shouts from inside me
But I am strong now...
It doesn't matter that you touched my soul
It doesn’t matter that you made me want to be a better person
It doesn’t matter that I wanted to give you the best of me
It doesn’t matter that my heart bears no semblance to a vessel where love resides
I want to scream, I want to cry, I want to run away from here, from the memory
It could have been a living, breathing dream...
I didn't give up
I have now accepted what is so obvious.
You have made your choice
And your choice didn’t include me.

The Rollercoaster

Ever ridden a rollercoaster? I have...it was one of those smallish ones at Hot Springs, I think. My life lately reminds me of that roller coaster. Ya know the anticipation that builds as you make the initial climb? I don't feel like I'm ascending anymore, well lately anyway. It seems like I'm no longer climbing, seems as though I'm starting the long, slow coast to the bottom. Already? Or is it all in my mind?